I Can't Sleep

Well, I can't sleep. The day that I have been waiting on for 4 years in tomorrow and nothing I do is putting my mind at bay. The past 2 hours have consisted of worship, prayer and tears, all in the mean time face down on the floor trying to lower my self as low as possible. God has overwhelmed me and I love it. All I keep hearing Him say is "Love Them....Love each and every single person you encounter and to make sure they know the love and hope only I can give them."


That is my prayer. That I am able to share the love of Jesus Christ to every person that I meet and for them to know, that the only thing I have to offer them is a way of freedom, mercy, hope and joy that can only be found in Jesus Christ. This is what I want to do for my life is share the love of Jesus to people of the world....and the only thing keeping me from not staying in Africa i to come back and finish school as quickly as possible so that I can leave Mississippi and share His love with everyone on earth. I am nothing without Jesus Christ, and He is the only person I live my life for. I am not afraid of death or injury or things going wrong. My only fear is missing an opportunity to share His Word with someone and that person missing out on the great love anyone has to offer. I want with everything that I am, for everyone to know Jesus Christ to be able to have the Grace and Mercy I experience every single day that I live. That they are given a reason to get up in the morning and that whether they have a lot or a little, that they understand it doesn't matter. I want every person to realize that Jesus is the only thing you need in your life, because in Him, YOU HAVE EVERYTHING! You have the only thing worth living for. He DIED for us....what a love...for someone to lay down there own life for another. He died for me, he died for you, and he died for every single person I will meet in Africa.


I want to have the love, that of a guy I know, Grant Blair. He is autistic, but has the kindness heart I have ever seen. He calls me daily just to see how I am doing...and even though sometimes its 8am, it still brings a smile to my face each time. I love this guy dearly and if everyone in the world had the hear and kindness of half of what Grant has, the world would be so amazing. If he doesn't know you when you see him, it doesn't matter, he still is going to be so kind to you, and before you leave he will know everything about you and will have blessed you. I am blessed to have this man in my life and I would trade anything in the world for it. He loves me, he loves everyone around him, and most of all he loves God and is in constant prayer.


I am so excited to get to Africa and experience the smiles of all the kids and to experience the kindness of the adults. I am excited that I have the honor of sharing the love of Jesus Christ to them...not only through my words but through my actions and emotions. I pray that God works through me daily, giving me the tools I need to share His love to everyone. 
I may not be able to change the whole world.....but I can sure start trying. 


Im going to try and sleep now. May God Bless You and your family. May he consume you with love and compassion and grant you peace each day.